Something a bit different today, this is NOT a self pity post - it is written in the hope it might help someone else out there.
Not many of you out there know, in fact I doubt any of you do.. but in April this year I gave up smoking after 30 years. What they dont tell you is not only how hard this can be, but also of the very many side effects that can manifest after the dreaded tobacco and other poisons leave your body.
So.. having suffered acute insomnia I started with a visit to the GP, who had no interest in the insomnia that I felt back in May was destroying me, I was so tired and could not function at all - he had no interest. In June I went to the dentist as I had bleeding gums, (at this point I must mention I had perfect health up to April this year)I was diagnosed with gum disease which left me totally horrified, I had looked after my teeth since I got them, some might say obsessively so. I was told by the dentist this was my own fault, firstly for smoking and secondly for not flossing every day?
After a course of antiboitics and a thorough clean from the hygienist all should have been well... but it wasnt, I started to suffer the most incredible pain in my gums.
Back to the dentist I went, they found nothing - told me all was now well.
Back to the GP I went, who informed me she was not a dentist and could not help me.
This went on.. and on..... Until this week I was forced to visit the dentist again after a couple of pretty severe days of pain, I saw a different dentist and she gave me a very thorough examination and a full x-ray. Again.. nothing wrong. Luckily for me this dentist knew her onions, she has given me a referral to the dental hosptial, but also sent me back to the GP with a note... she suspects I have NEURALGIA, the dental form of this is Odontalgia, anyone interested in knowing more about this there is plenty of information here Odontalgia
Basically, it is a condition of the nerves causing the pain I described, at last!! someone has listened and soon I can get some help. I havent actually found anyone else who suffers from this yet, but there is information out in cyberland. The most frightening thing about this condition, is most people are not diagnosed until after they have had an awful lot of unneccessary dental treatment - how scary is that? Some can also wait years for a diagnosis.
Thats enough on that one then. Meanwhile I did of course have to 'art it out' and before my last visit to the dentist I painted this, its called "PAIN" as it was how I felt at the time of painting, I was sinking into a huge pit of despair.
I will be linking this post to Effy's Swoon Sunday were many of us from the Book of Days group, choose a blog post and picture (mine is of the above painting) to enter into our Swoon day.
I also did a quick sketch of Effy this week from her picture on the website, wonder what she will make of this then? certainly should raise a smile at least - might not be fabulous, but in October last year I could only manage a stick person.
If anyone does wish to discuss Neuralgia or Odontalgia any further there are contact details for me on my website.
I hope this wasnt too miserable a blog post, that was not the intention - I am fine now, or at least I will be soon once I start the treatment, but there are many out there who are not and still waiting for the help they need.
Aw! I love that sketch! Really sorry about the neuralgia, lovely. That bites the big one. :(
ReplyDeleteKeep arting it out, mending, healing and loving.
ReplyDeletelove the painting! and I hear you on the dental pain... continue to take care of yourself the best ways you can and know that there is an end to the pain in sight.
ReplyDeleteSorry you have suffered so much. Congratulations on your wonderful achievement of breaking one of the worst addictions going.
ReplyDeleteGreat paintings and so good you use your art to channel your feelings x
wow, congrats on quitting smoking! i'm glad some art could come out of a negative event.
ReplyDelete(found you via effy's swoon post!)
Glad you liked the sketch Effy:) Thank you to all the 'swooners' who have taken time to comment, I have enjoyed visiting you all.
ReplyDeleteThanks Janice nice to see you here too x
congrats on ditching the smokes, hope the dental issues go away soon. Great art post too :)
ReplyDeleteWhile I know that the painting was done while in pain, it's really nice. *swoon*
ReplyDeleteArt it out. Ooooohhhh. I LOVE that! Your use of color in "pain" is brilliant. Much love!
ReplyDeleteFelicia the Journal Junkie
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Many Thanks for popping by xx
ReplyDeleteYes, your picture pretty much sums it up! I am so sorry to hear of the pain you have however super congratulations for giving up the smokes! I am also a smoker of 30+ years and wouldn't know where to start giving up... also not sure if I want to as I have seen people close to me develop illnesses after they have given up and it kind of puts me off.
ReplyDeleteTake care,
Mick
Thanks Mick, you kept that one quiet (but then, so did I). Intersting you also know of many people developing illness as a result of kicking the habit, I have discoverd quite a few too. I wouldnt encourage anyone to give up now, on my own experiences and other stories I have heard.
ReplyDeletetenacity ... good for you ... art is healing (via swoon)
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